Guilt

I’ve been feeling very guilty lately. Guilty because I’ve been working at home more than usual (it’s snowing in Seattle!). Guilty because I’ve not been able to keep up with many of the goals I’ve set out for myself over the past month. Guilty because I just started a new job and will be taking a month off to travel to Palm Springs and India. Guilty because I haven’t been able to finish a series of essays I have been stewing over. Guilty because technically I am writing this blog post on Thursday, even though to me it is still Wednesday “night.”

It has dawned on me how destructive this feeling of guilt is. There is nothing productive to come of it. Guilt does inspire you. Guilt does not give you energy to push through a roadblock. Guilt does not help create any positive memories about whatever situation you are dealing with. Guilt doesn’t feel good. Guilt doesn’t make others feel good.

I’ve had it with the g-word.

From now on, I’m not going to feel guilty about anything, ever. I’m gonna feel……funny! Yeah, I’ll feel funny that I wasn’t able to meet my goals, or write the essay, or do 20 pull ups in the gym or whatever. I’ll just feel funny about it. I’ll laugh at myself a bit. Other people can even have carte blache to laugh at me a little. At least this way, I’ll be more receptive to learning from whatever I did or didn’t do. It will also make for some really happy memories 10 years from now!